: Richard Lumb
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Time is relative to the moment, to what we engaged in, and accompanied by feelings of comfort or other combinations that leave little time to reflect on the past and specific events.For former police, it is during the quiet of the night, when silence and lack of background noise open the spigot and allows in both Saints and Demons to compete for attention. Life is a combination of events, where we have choices, or in many instances, the moment dictates the action we take. As with all things past, they remain as they happened, we cannot change them, and for the future, we must use our experience and knowledge to move forward.Writing this book, countless times, I returned to thinking about my four children. While numerous instances are remembered, I do not have a depth of their young childhood, as I was not there daily. Divorce expands the time missing, and the second variable is the job, for as a police officer it consumes the person and carries him into the world populated with the human disorder, deviance, criminality, and other negative impacts on the quality-of-life of a community. And, during those times, most of us worked a second part-time job to make financial ends meet.Those closest to us received the brunt of discomfort and enjoyed the happiness that accompanies those moments of togetherness. We know that, but still, we grieve over our absence during the many times when being there, could not happen due to duty and commitment. In hindsight, it all seems somewhat backward! Yet the story of one is often the story of many, and in its telling, we seek forgiveness and understanding.